“I won’t do this movie because I don’t believe the love story,” she told Selznick. “The heroine is an intellectual woman, and an intellectual woman simply can’t fall in love so deeply.”
She sat facing the mirror, putting on her makeup.
Afterall, what good is a woman if she cannot even look good for her lover, right?
It was a terrible infatuation; she fell hard and fast even though she knew how wrong that would be.
He wasn’t married (thank god..) but he did have a good woman waiting for him at home, and she knew she wasn’t his first affair either but like every romantic would say, love is indeed blind – you cannot escape your biological wirings.
It was difficult in the beginning.
It still is now.
But she’s starting to learn how.
He asked to meet her last week to celebrate his new freedom – he’d just broke up with his girlfriend.
She felt a slight corner of her heart soar – finally she’s no longer the 3rd party; there might be a chance for them to be together.
That thought put her on cloud nine for days, and then he asked to meet her again today.
He seldom sound that excited, she could feel it in his voice but she could also feel a certain dread grip her heart.
She saw him walked through the doors with a brilliant smile. It made her smile.
When he settled down, conversation flowed as it usually does, and then he told her the news.
He’s met someone.
She wasn’t the usual pretty type, but there was an aura about her.
As she listened to him describe her and how attracted he is to her, her heart grew heavier and heavier.
Eventually, it stopped feeling.
At the end of that meeting, she decided to take a long walk home instead of her usual bus.
Her heart ached with each step she took. She wanted very much to cry, but she couldn’t.
She reminded herself of the truth about love.
Nothing but a chemical effect.
It makes even the most intelligent lose their wits.
Once that effect wears off, you’ll realize how silly you have been.
She wondered if she had worn off the effect or is she still lying to herself as a solitary tear rolled down her cheek.
“I always tell the truth. Even when I lie.”