Archive | January, 2013

That priceless moment

28 Jan

Ever had that moment where you meet someone you used to have a crush on or got ditched/rejected by because they thought you were not good enough?

It broke your little heart to see them walk away with some other girl that you wished was you.
And you really couldn’t help but wonder what was it that she had and you didn’t?

Remember how your friends had to comfort you while you brawled your heart out over the rejection with things like “oh well, shit happens” or “you deserve better” and the ever classic “he doesn’t know what he’s missing”?

Well, guess what?

Shit does indeed happen.

=)

You had a crush on this older boy when you were younger and he rejected you not quite gently, because you were simply not good enough for him.

Can’t blame him though, you were a bit of an oddball and you still are today..

At that point in time, it hurt really bad and you stain your pillows with tears.

You avoided places or occasions where you might see them together to avoid having the healing wound burn again.

You thought you would never find happiness again and wallowed in that depressive state for a while before you finally got sick of being sad and got over the whole rejection.

And then one fine day, as you were walking around the neighbourhood, you spotted someone who looked remotely like him.

You weren’t quite sure so you took a second longer look to affirm your suspicions.

Bingo!

It is him..

He looked different, he’s lost that charm and sauveness he used to have.

The girl next to him was the same girl from back then.

Well, good for him I guess..

Your face slowly parts into a smile.

He heads towards your direction, he didn’t seem to recognize you but he had that brilliant smile on his face that he only reserved for her back then.

She looks annoyed.

Oh well..

He askes you for directions to the park and you pull your charms.

In your mind, you were contemplating asking him if he remebers you and then your train of thought got disrupted.

You hear a child screaming in the background and she was carrying the child towards him.

You could see his face cringe a little.

And you simply continue smiling.

That could have been me… 

As THAT thought ran through your mind, your smile got wider and you leaned forward to play a little with the child.

While at the same time savouring that priceless moment, knowing that you have escaped a certain fate.

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How we forget

25 Jan

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You start innocently enough, forgetting how his skin feels under your finger tips.

You forget the contours of his face, his body and the textures of his skin.

You forget the warmth and the scent he leaves behind whenever you touch.

The scent so strong, it makes you relive each moment you’ve spent together in vivid memory.

But soon and eventually, you will begin to lose that scent.

You will forget if he smells of musk or leather.
Or was it sandlewood and cigerettes?

His scent will escape your memories, slowly but eventually.

You start to forget the colour of his eyes – a colour so vivid, you never had any problem remembering them before.

Was it a light playful shade of brown or that seductive shade of green you love?

The colours are meshing, they no longer stand out.
Its getting harder and harder to recall each day.

Soon enough, they look like empty spaces to you.

The last thing you’d forget is his name, his voice.

The name that brings a torrid of emotions.
They haunt you like ghosts of a distant past.

You will begin to forget how smoothly his name rolls off your tongue, off his.

You will learn to forget.

Because that’s what time does to people and their memories.

It slowly eats away and leaves you with nothing but hazy memories of what used to be.

And eventually, even that would fade too.

Leaving you to wonder what is it that you were trying to hold on to for so long.

On the Road

25 Jan

Is it okay I be me?

15 Jan

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Is it really okay not to be okay?
Is it okay to be all broken and messed up inside?
Is it really okay to feel like you would never be loved?
Or that you’d be stuck in this rut for an awful long time?

Is it really okay to be like Alice,
Going down that rabbit hole and fully enjoy the experience?
Is it really okay to stick out like a sore thumb,
In the sea of beautiful long legged creatures?

Is it really okay to lose control,
And not live up to that expectation every once in a while?
Is it really okay to dream of being a diamond in the rough,
When all you are being told and see are running straight in the opposite direction?

Is it really okay to be labelled fat,
Because you the clothing labels says so?
It is really okay to you yourself,
That the world makes clothes for size 0 women,
But you are not and will never be that?

Is it really okay that I sing,
Even though I know I have a terrible singing voice?
It it okay if I stop pretending for a while,
Just so I can breathe and allow myself to be afraid?

Is it really okay to prefer living in denial,
Because reality can be so cruel sometimes?
Is it okay if the tears flow every once in a while,
Because I am not as strong or brave as you’d like to believe I am?

Is it okay that I be me, with all the baggage I carry with me?
I am trying and learning to let go, move on,
But somethings are easier said than done.

Is it okay I take off this armour,
And give you my mind and soul?
Will you promise to hold it tenderly in your hands,
And nourish it with all the care you can manage?

Is it okay if I just want to lie here for a while,
To feel your warmth and scent while it still lasts,
Without any thought about the future?

All I want, is to be okay for once.

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6 Foods That Taste Even Better When You’re Drunk | Thought Catalog

15 Jan

Pizza & dim sum..
God..how nice they taste when you are shit high…ha

6 Foods That Taste Even Better When You’re Drunk | Thought Catalog.

8 People You Need To Stop Thinking About | Thought Catalog

15 Jan

8 People You Need To Stop Thinking About | Thought Catalog.

If You Don’t Like Me, Just Say So | Thought Catalog

15 Jan

If You Don’t Like Me, Just Say So | Thought Catalog.

Sunrise Sunset

13 Jan

Another stunning collection of photos by Steve McCurry 😉

Blowing bubbles

13 Jan

How To Kiss A Girl | Thought Catalog

13 Jan

How To Kiss A Girl | Thought Catalog.